Well poker has been going not well...so I'm going to talk a little about poker in this post...and then ramble about something else for the rest. Friday I did a session at Venetian and actually had a nice session. +2BI or so, which wasn't too bad at all. Hit a nice double draw (will be my hand at the end of the post) for an $800 pot, which was lovely to say the least. Saturday I lost a BI never playing a pot bigger than $125. I can't tell you how awesome it is to constantly just sit there getting dealt garbage, and then hitting nothing with the draw hands, no sets, no pairs, no nothing...yet a kid sits down and in 5 straight hands hits trips+ every hand...and claims he “runs bad”. *grumble*
Did an 18 tabling session today, and lost 2.5BI playing well. Hit 1 set out of 49 pp's seeing flops (of course the 1 set I hit I got perfect-perfect'd to lose a BI)...1/14 of pair+ with AJo+, and was dealt AA/KK ½ as many times as I should have. O well. For some odd reason PokerStars is slow as crap. I've actually increased my amount of tables because seeing 500hands/hr is just too damn slow. I'll experiment with it for a bit longer and see if most tables is decreasing my WR at all...but I'm pretty sure all that will happen is my redline will increase while my blue/green do as they wish. PokerStars players are super weak/tight...good for my style I guess (also, playing 19/14 while 18tabling is silly-fun).
Well, now that I'm done venting about this retarded game that I run retardedly bad at...I wanted to talk about my life direction. Any and all comments are welcome...but I wanted to get this out...so now seems like a fun time to do that.
For one, I feel as thought I'm playing poker for a living right now in hopes of avoiding a “real job”. I know I am capable of more than playing poker for a living, and I strive to reach a higher level in life. For one, I feel playing poker has very little benefit to anyone but myself (I mean hell, I make my money causing pain to others in a sense). I want to help not only myself, but others. I really just want to feel like I'm contributing...but my big issue is that I feel businesses tend to be so greedy that I wouldn't be doing anything but working to help grow greed which “takes” from people (right back to doing what I'm doing now, taking money and causing pain for people, but in a suit and tie).
So there is some dissonance. Also, I have no idea what I want to really do. There are two thoughts here...one is teach, get paid nothing, but enjoy what I do while feeling like I contribute, two is jump in my suit and tie, work my way up the political/corporate ladder, and get paid well while doing things that help business. Oddly enough this seems like the comment I made a few posts back about quality v quantity. I would have a high quality teaching (or something of the like), and a high quantity (money) if I went the corporate route. The damn thing is that my brain is so geared towards business, and not using a solid skill-set seems wasteful. If only I could seriously get into corporate coaching or something, I could combine both skill+desire...because right now I have no desire to become a corporate work-horse, nor a broke dude.
I know that I am avoiding my “jump” into the real world. I came to Vegas in hopes of propelling myself in life, and here I still sit behind my damn computer playing poker every day. The only difference is I go to a casino to play poker sometimes now, so there is some interaction while working. I just need to pick a route and jump. I'm not sure if I don't jump because I'm scared of hating it, I would hate wasting time, or I just secretly want to break-even for the rest of life. I just need to go forward with something...I always preach to people that they need to actively think and progress, and it's time I take my own advice....just need to flip a coin and pick a route.
Thanks for reading my ramble...
A hand before bed:
Venetian 1/2nl
Hero (covers table, MP3) overlimps Qh 9h...
Flop: (6 players/$12) Kh Th 7s
check, check, check, check, I bet $10, fold, fold, SB raises to $41 (with $380 stack), folds to me, I call.
Turn: (2 players, $95) Jd (omgomgomg!)
SB bets $110, I shove, SB tanks and finally calls
River blanks off, I ship a nice pot. Hurray hitting a draw!
*SS*
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1 comment:
some people are scared of failure some are scared of success...
This comes from a business man who plays poker. Your issue with greed and business is unfounded. Far more businesses that are profitable for their owners provide needed services and products for the marketplace. Look around your home at everything you use on a daily basis. Hundreds of businesses even thousands of businesses have allowed you to live the modern life the you lead.
If you go the business route, keep this in mind and you will excel as an employee or a business owner. Make sure you are serving your customers well. Make sure they stay the focus of your business. Don't worry about the money more often than not, the money will come if the customers are served.
Nothing could be more fufilling then you reaching your financial goals knowing that you did it helping someone else.
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