Well the house thing is starting to figure itself out. Apparently the company that gave us the 3day-quit notice is tied with the bank...and we have some more time than we thought if we follow the legal system correctly. The time frame is 30-60 days from what we can tell...so hopefully it stays at the longer side of that =)
Poker has been going decently. Actually hadn't had a losing session since the 11th...but then had a loser at the V on Saturday. I think I realized what tilts me more than anything. I absolutely hate when I will miss all of my draws, and people will hit theirs. For instance, I got in 4 pots with the same player on Saturday. I missed 1 FD, 1 SD, both with 2 cards to come against them. They hit 2 FDs against me when I had TP/2pr each time. It infuriates me when normalization will never happen. I try not to do this, but I actually kept track over the last 3 days, and I have actually only hit 1 of 27 draws (SD+)...stupid game.
I've been in an odd state the last few days. I know that when a person reaches a certain point of “enlightenment” they begin to question a human's purpose in life. Which of course leads to them asking themsevles why they are alive, and then what would happen if they died. I reached this awhile ago, and even after talking it out with a few different counselors, I've only reached “life has no direct purpose...just have fun and create a your own purpose” This severely depresses me as I constantly strive for a bigger end-goal than “omg, lets have fun!”
A huge issue with this for is this...I love helping people. I like helping people progress and make their lives better. However, when I look at it from the outside point of view...I am helping people progress towards what? Either I help them reach a thought process which will lead to this realization...or I help them towards an end-goal of nothing. I think a big problem with this, for me, is that I don't have a religious base. When your entire base of reason is logic there will be huge problems when the solution isn't tangible. I think this is where I struggle a lot...making sense of non-tangibles like these.
I don't know...the whole subject is very odd to talk about, and always leads to a religion v logic argument anyway. I just wanted to give you a little bit of how I'm feeling at the moment. The stress of the house stuff, holidays coming up, my brother, and the finality of this house are making my brain work in overload. Which probably explains why I am getting a little tilty at times (I mean hell...I even started getting heated while playing Halo because I felt I was running bad there). I just need normalcy...or to construct a state of normalcy for myself.
Also...nicest thing someone has said to me in like forever: “well how about this...if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have paid bill the last 2 months...I've only paid bills because of poker as the casino has been way slow...so my daughter and my wife and I all thank you very much.” (from a student who can name himself in the comments if he chooses to do so). It means a lot to me when people thank those that have helped them, and I'm glad I have helped him in such a positive way.
Sorry about the emo-esque post...a hand before bed (like...you must feel salty when you see how nitty/bad you are, right?):
Full Tilt Poker Game #8678133615: Table Franklin - $0.25/$0.50 - No Limit Hold'em - 22:41:05 ET - 2008/10/26
Seat 1: scbobbyb ($23.45)
Seat 2: mininoto ($54.50)
Seat 3: Man of Gold5 ($13.60)
Seat 4: BcuzItsSo ($50)
Seat 5: wayner777 ($34.15)
Seat 6: DOM D ($40.15)
Seat 7: shark2006 ($27.65)
Seat 8: Its RIGGIGGITY ($57.10)
Seat 9: Boston2000 ($10)
shark2006 posts the small blind of $0.25
Its RIGGIGGITY posts the big blind of $0.50
The button is in seat #6
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Its RIGGIGGITY [Qs Jh]
scbobbyb folds
mininoto calls $0.50
Man of Gold5 folds
BcuzItsSo folds
wayner777 folds
DOM D folds
shark2006 folds
Its RIGGIGGITY checks
*** FLOP *** [Jc 3h Qd]
Its RIGGIGGITY bets $1
mininoto calls $1
*** TURN *** [Jc 3h Qd] [5s]
Its RIGGIGGITY bets $2
mininoto calls $2
*** RIVER *** [Jc 3h Qd 5s] [6s]
Its RIGGIGGITY bets $4
mininoto raises to $10
Its RIGGIGGITY calls $6
*** SHOW DOWN ***
mininoto shows [3s 3c] three of a kind, Threes
Its RIGGIGGITY mucks
mininoto wins the pot ($25.90) with three of a kind, Threes
*SS*
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Evolution buddy. Evolution is the "logic" reason why we are here. Our "meaning in life" is coded in human DNA to be a social animal and derive our "meaning" from helping each other to survive in the Darwinian sense.
That's why you like to help others. It is your "logical" meaning in life. Accept it and get on with being a human by helping others.
Scientifically, a social species needs a blend of selfish genes ("have fun for me" and altruistic genes "helping others" for an optimum outcome.
Your teaching touches people you've never met (like me!) and leaves footprints in the sand of far away beaches. And that makes you feel satisfied (because you have human DNA.
You Americans think too much. As Nike says, "Just do it."
Hope that helps you as much as your vids and posts have quietly helped me.
TimTamBiscuit at 2Plus2
P.S. If you were happy all the time you wouldn't be human you'd be a game show host!
SS
How about Leatherass' stated "meaning of life"?
His plan is to make millions at poker to seed business ideas ala Paul Newman that then generate squillions for charity. And,being LA he wants to be number 1 at it by making more money for charity than anyone has ever done! (He has a way to go to beat Bill Gates and Warren Buffett).
TimTamBiscuit
TimTam:
Thanks dude. well put. and although i haven't spend the time to digest and analyze it all yet, it seems to make sense the first time around.
also...glad i have helped ya. not rly sure how i have, but ill take your word that i have =)
also...i strongly doubt that LeatherAss is human. the man is a machine. but i do like his concepts and agree with his charity ideas.
thnx again for the well thought-out response sir. (and yes, i think too damn much)
*SS*
All I have to say is I am proud to be a member of Stoxpoker!
thnx Brandon =) enjoying the series?
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